harmful

 [ EXTREME CONTENT WARNING ]: there are mentions of self harm, blood, sharp items, and stuff like that. if you're sensitive to that stuff, PLEASEEE click off for your own sake. (hoping this doesnt get me shadow banned from kagi / google search)     

anyway here we are again! hello hai! uhm srory for not writing onto here for a hot minute but im back againj soo </3 im hoping not to leave for a long period like i did again but yeah. this is kinda a vent post and im only posting it here bc it's a heavy topic and not everyone likes to just have that laid down on them LMAO 

my parents are SO easy to steal from lmao,, like literally i went into kitchen and took a kitchen knife and my dad didnt even notice LMAO?: i used the knife to get the blade out my pencil sharpener bc i lost my other blade but erm anwya i sh for the first time in a while. i know i shouldnt but i dont do it but i dont do it bc i think its emo and edgy or im depressed, i just do it cuz i find it funny. for some reason my friends stress over that shi even when i tell them its ok

but now im thinking that im acc kinda liking it?? like i used to just cut myself for shits n giggles and stuff like that but now im acc liking cutting myself and thats rlly bad. i need to atleast attempt to stop myself or sumn, but it's like an addiction kinda 

anyway, in other less depressing / weird news; im writing sumn really big! its gonna be a small short film thing abt how attempting to juggle my social life, making my game n stuff like that has affected me emotionally / mentally, im really excited!

sorry if there's sloppy writing, im writing this in vc when my friends are yapping away abt among us lol. i love you all, sorry for the short post, stay fighting <3

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