encounter

hey everybody

trying to get back on the schedule of daily posts, so here's a story from dec 16th.

a while back i was groomed. not something i'd necessarily enjoy to look back on, or remember at all, but here's what happened during that.

this guy who yes, will remain unnamed, met me on a little vr game call rec room. haven't we heard about that one before? i think i have, but i don't remember!

but anyways, we first met in a ^RecCenter. for those who don't already know, ^RecCenter is the main hub that anyone can join and talk in. kind of like a global chatroom, or metas horizon central in horizon worlds

but anyway, in this instance of the ^RecCenter he kept following me around and saying that he liked me. i thought he was cool and funny so i added him to my friends list. then he just kinda like... forced me into a relationship? he was like flirty with me at first but at one point i said "does this mean were dating now?" and he said "yeah" so.... ?

at one point, est july '23, he decided to break up with me. no reason i believe, just he wanted to. then he came back. and then this happened again, and again, and again. usually he'd give me reasons for it like "im not good for you" or something along those lines. this was genuinely just exhausting and it wasnt getting either of us anywhere. it'd just be a bunch of me crying in my little corner of the internet, and him flaunting how mature he was for breaking up with me.

at one point, of course when we were still together, he cheated on me with one of my friends. i don't exactly remember the name of the person he cheated on me with, but i remember that it happened.

one of my other friends sent me a screenshot of him and my friend being all lovey dovey and presumably in a relationship. even talking about me calling me a tr*nny or a faggot. my other friend invited me to the group chat and me and my friend argued for so long. i remember crying so hard that night.

at one point, i decided that i wanted to break it off. i blocked him on all of the platforms i thought of at that point. discord, vrc, twitter, rec room, etc.

fast forward to now, dec '24, and im logging into my old reddit account. i was talking to my friend about something, and i decided to research a little to prove that i was correct. i was screensharing to them. i wasn't really thinking about him at all, i had completely moved on, but i look at my chats and see a new one. i didn't recognize the username at first, but then it finally snapped. it was a message from 9/11/24 that i hadn't seen. this is what he said.

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> Hey [eight], this is [me].

> I just wanted to say that I'm really fucking sorry. I know I've sounded like a broken record for almost a year now, but I am.

> I've had this guilt for awhile now and I just cannot with it anymore. can't find our old Discord messages, so I'm trying as a last hope here.

> About our relationship, or a sad excuse for one. I know what I did, and I'm sorry for that too. I took advantage of you and it went too far.

> It was the only kind of love I knew prior to our relationship. You might remember my ex, you texted them as a joke, I don't want to put the blame on them, but I can't really not do it, I guess?

> In other words, they forced me into a relationship. I know you know how that is. During it, they were weird and they always asked for used, and it was practically what I thought of "love" as.

> I don't know what went right with you for a few months, enough to put up with my shit, but I guess eventually, I just fucking broke.

> I didn't want to be mean to you when we stopped talking. I was just blindly angry. It was an impulse and it wasn't good for me.

> I was absolutely mentally unstable. I fucking made jokes about me having an incest kink. I swear I don't.

> I also told you my grandma died? I think? I can't remember, but regardless, she isn't dead. The last few bits of our relationship are all a blur to me.

> So, I've been taking therapy. I remember you always told me to get therapy for whatever the fuck I did that was bad.

> I'm sorry I'm finally listening now.

> We'd be together right now if I just fucking listened,

> I'd still be loving you.

> And you'd still be loving me. Like I promise we'd be doing forever.

> Again, I'm sorry. If you're still on Reddit, or at least alive at all, please text me again on discord with my handle "[@discordusername]".

> I miss you, [eight].

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after reading that all, i didn't know what to think. i tried to reach out, but that username isn't valid anymore. i don't know wether that was some elaborate guilt trip to try and get me back into a relationship with him but im just left here with questions i can't get answers to

i sent one last message to him on dec 16th.

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> that handle doesnt work anymore

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that's kinda where we are now.

sorry for the deviation from my normal classmate shitposts and silly posts as of recent, but i like having an outlet to express my emotions. i don't want you all to feel trapped from my normal posts, so from now on ill be marking my serious posts with #contentwarning. if you have any questions, leave them in the comments.

i love you eighters, stay fighting, <3