inside that little head of yours

hai! we havent talked in a little bit. sorry about that. it's mostly because i've actually been getting more social interaction than i used to, some people i could talk to (if you're reading, you know who you are) and more places i can actually talk about this stuff. not necessarily a place where i can talk about this stuff (serious stuff like i talk about on here) but a place where i can actually kinda express myself! anyways, this post is another moving post. i was thinking about it earlier, and it all just came together; i could literally just make a tumblr blog. that's why it's there, is it not? lmaoooo! so i was sitting there thinking about it, but i came back to the original point of itlhoy; a personal blog where i post what i want, where i want, how i want. and tumblr ofc has rules . so i went and reviewed them. there's nothing that i necessarily disagree with, but having restrictions and rules on what i post can discourage me. also, some of the wording...

 hey eighters ! writing this on my phone because i don’t want to get on my pc rn. also wanted to say itlhoy is not shutting down! i explain why i said so in a future post, so hang tight i just wanted to semi-rant tonight, but not about raquelle (classmate) or alpha (stalking) or my groomer, just sorta myself i guess.  i’ve never really been the fittest person ig, just sorta “average” if you could even call it that. i’ve never liked how i looked, just accepted it; it’s not necessarily something i can control, i workout everyday so i guess i’m the problem or something like that also never liked my appearance, i have like chronic baby face, and combined with the fact i have an ugly smile and i look really young, i’ve pretty much never liked looking at my face. that’s also why i dont show my face online. i truly do attempt to have self confidence, but it’s simply saying you look perfect like people say it is; why would it be that easy? when talking to people i’ll act like im proud...

hello, eighters! writing this on my phone because i’m at school, but it’s fine :3 earlier today i was planning on moving the site to wordpress. right now i use googles blogger service, which is very restrictive on what i can and can’t do with my website. wordpress actually lets me customize my website and edit things. i was also planning on rebranding, and i have a couple names in mind that i could use; irreversible, itlhoy (as a main name instead of acronym), and variable (if you have a different / better idea, leave one in the comments!) i’ll probably repost all my old posts onto the new blog, but if i want it to be easier, i could put my current website (which would then be the old one, insidethatlittlehead.uk) into a sort of “archive” mode where its read-only and you can’t interact with anything. i don’t know about keeping both domains open though. costs would increase a little (even if insidethatlittlehead.uk is cheap, idk about the other domain) but hey, what do you do? love u ei...

this is a continuation of the original post, encounter . you can start here if you want, but you will be missing context this takes place in december of 2024, the same month/year i wrote and posted the original encounter. yes, all usernames are edited or redacted just for privacy. no, that is not my actual discord profile rn, i changed it for this post ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ after he sent me those reddit messages, i reached out to one of my friends to try and grab his discord username. (if you remember clearly, you'll remember the username he provided was invalid) my friend had ties with him because i had previously introduced her to him, and she never clears her discord dm history. (also props to her for being SUPER SUPER SUPER supportive of me! <3)  also, for some reason, i decided not to tell him to let go (???) looking back, ofc i really should have just not reached out in the first place, but i did. so i reach out (dumb decision) saying that we could be friends again....

been a while, yes? sorry i was gone for so long >_< but yes, i'm alive! the reason i havent posted in so long is because i've been checking traffic, and i dont get a lot of visitors on the web bc im buried in search results, and nobody really checks blogs on the internet anymore :/ ^^^ no offense to everybody else, but i think im better :shrug: ^^^ even if you specify "eight" in results, you still cant find me on the first page. ONLY when you search for "inside that little head" AND "eight", will you find me on search when i first figured this out, this really fucked up my confidence and removed all incentive to post. my first instinct was to tell my friends about the blog, but ofc i really really want to stay anonymous, and telling friends would fuck everything up. a quick life update; i've really gotten into osu! recently! i have to play on !lazer most of the time, because i use macOS, but other than that the game is really fun! now, it...

hey everybody trying to get back on the schedule of daily posts, so here's a story from dec 16th. a while back i was groomed. not something i'd necessarily enjoy to look back on, or remember at all, but here's what happened during that. this guy who yes, will remain unnamed, met me on a little vr game call rec room.  haven't we heard about that one before?  i think i have, but i don't remember! but anyways, we first met in a ^RecCenter. for those who don't already know, ^RecCenter is the main hub that anyone can join and talk in. kind of like a global chatroom, or metas horizon central in horizon worlds but anyway, in this instance of the ^RecCenter he kept following me around and saying that he liked me. i thought he was cool and funny so i added him to my friends list. then he just kinda like... forced me into a relationship? he was like flirty with me at first but at one point i said "does this mean were dating now?" and he said "yeah" so....